Reconsidering - Elise Skidmore

I thought about calling today.
I really felt like talking to someone.
I'm feeling too much these days,
and wanted a distraction,
or barring that,
someone who would listen,
and make me feel heard—
as you always do.

But then I thought
you've got a lot of feelings these days too,
and it wouldn't be fair;
someone has to be able to come up for air
or we'd both drown in the same pool.
Besides, you were probably busy.
At least that's what I told myself.
So I didn't call.

But I now I wonder
if you weren't sitting there
thinking the same things,
and not calling because...

Well, just because.